Time Flies

Well, this is pretty much the end of my two week vacation. It flew by way to fast! some good did come out of it though. I painted a bathroom. Well, not just painted , but striped the wallpaper, sanded off the glue by hand, put 3 coats of primer and 3 coats of paint on the walls. Man I was sore. Now Mom and Dad have a very very blue bathroom! (Thats the color dad picked). I kept meaning to take pictures of the whole process, but every time I got a break all I wanted to do was sit down. Oh well, you'll have to take my word for it. It looks amazing! Now I don't want to paint for a very long time.

Another good thing is my roommate finally got the good news we've all been praying for. Benign is a lovely word don't ya think? I mean it sounds pretty weird but its the better option than Malignant. So no more hospitals for a good long while, that is as long as I can keep myself from being a klutz! lol.

So the other new beginning that I have taken on is working out daily. I am sick of the way I look. I miss being that toned lax player in high school, and I have forgotten how good I feel after I work out. Its tough coming from almost 4 years of being a lazy college student. I got these infomercial 10 minute trainer dvd's. It has an exercise plan and diet plan so I'm hoping that with all the rules to stick by, this will actually work. Plus its hard to say you don't have 10 minutes to work out, though I usually do 2 or 3 of them but still, it gives me no excuse. I'm hoping I can do one before I go to work, and 2 when I get home at night. We'll see though, I'm crossing my fingers cause so far nothing has worked.

Ok so I think it may be time to do a little work for the roomie. Transcribing...fun fun. Although I shouldn't complain, I'm bored as hell. I've cleaned this apartment, gotten ready for the first week of classes, and gone through all my clothing to donate to goodwill...I have nothing left to do! So, off to transcribe!

A New Beginning

I feel like I need to start writing again. I have only had one true blog that I wrote in everyday. And lets be realistic, I probably wont be able to write in this everyday. But I would like to have a place to go to get my feelings out. I am doing an amazing job of bottling them up, and that needs to stop.

I realized last night, that I am being very selfish. This past year I was more selfish than I ever had been. Poor Meg, its a good thing she understands me. I wouldn't fault her at all if she ran away screaming because my moods are too much for her. I don't think I can blame all of this on the anxiety anymore. I'm gonna chalk it up to the new location and my normal stupidity whenever I move to a new location. I'm just very lucky that I have friends who don't mind sticking with me. Both new and old, they remind me of how truly blessed I am. So where am I getting at will all this rambling? I am turning over a new leaf. Its time to stop being selfish and find pleasure in helping others out. This doesn't mean I'm volunteering for new responsibilities, so breathe. We all know I don't have enough hours in the day to get anything new on my plate. No, I am going to be the friend I lost in this move. I decided last night that I am going to love more and help more. That is my goal for the next school year.

I also want to enjoy the things I feel that were lost in all the craziness of last year. I've missed my music. Today for the first time in a long time, I went through all of my 3,000 songs to find my favorites. It took me back and helped me remember CNU more vividly than I have in a very long time. One last hope for this upcoming year...to get my guitar out and play every now and then. I'm pretty much done with computer games, which gives me a ton of time on my hands. I want to play and sing again. I just hope I don't annoy Meg or our neighbors.

Well I think this is a good beginning to the new journal. I have no clue who will actually read it, but I don't much care :)